06.12.2002 | 5:09 p.m.
I'm addicted to these.

Stolen from the lovely Phil. I meant to write a real entry but I have no emotional energy to.

1. what is (usually) the first thing you think about when you wake up in the morning?

Shut up,you goddamned alarm clock.

2. what is (usually) the last thing you think about when you are falling asleep at night?

Him.

3. in relationships, do you let your heart go all the way? or do you hold back from bonding with others?

Haha,you're talking to Miss. Sentimentality herself.

4. what keeps you sane amidst it all?

The Beatles.

5. what drives you to (the brink of) losing it?

Ha. Everything but.

6. are you proud or ashamed of the way you live your life? (the way you act... the things you do... the things you say... the way you treat others...)

No, I pretty much hate everything I do and everything I say. I do treat others well, to be fair.

7. do you live your life for yourself? or do you live your life for others?

Sadly for others.

8. do you feel like you have control of your life?

I wish.

9. how many years have you been living so far?

19.

10. what is your raison d'etre (reason for being)?

Music.

11. do you believe in God?

Not at all. I wish I did though.

12. do you take illegal drugs? which ones...

None.

13. what are your addictions? (drugs, coffee, gambling, alcohol, internet, sex, food, stealing, nicotine, etc.)

Sex,drugs and rock and roll! Err...just the internet

14. how long do you think you are going to live? if you had to predict or guess?

I plead the fifth.

15. how long do you wish you could live?

Ditto.

16. your best memory...

The Concert for George

17. your favourite thing to do on a rainy day...

Huddle on the chair in the living room(in Bombay)with a book to read or my laptop to write on.

18. what makes you smile, each and every time?

The Royal Tenenbaums, "I love you"s, The Beatles, Catcher in the Rye.

19. when was the last time someone kissed you?

Oh Jesus,let's not even get into that.

20. as Jim Morrison said... (pretend you are looking back...) Did you have a good life when you died? good enough to base a movie on?

Oh my life would make a very scandalous movie. A "psychological case study" of something or the other, I'm sure.

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