2002-07-03 | 3:28 p.m.
this isn't worth reading either.

What does "worth" mean? How do you qualify as being "worth someone/thing?"? What does it imply when you say "Forget it. It/She/He's not worth it"? Who decides worth and worthlessness? Is there even any concrete criteria? I constantly find myself wallowing in notions of worthlessness and convincing myself that I'm not worthy enough of certain people, when in actuality I don't even know what it really means. I have this idea right now that I'm not worthy of being loved because I have nothing to offer. Who knows if I'm right or not? And who really cares? I believe what I believe and my tenacity levels are higher than ever right now.

I'm listening to an ancient, scratchy Pet Sounds tape that used to belong to Daddy or Shomi Uncle or one of their dope smoking friends. I'm going to stop talking now. If only I had a shoulder to put my head on.

deja vu? | jamais vu?